"Maana ke dosto ko Nahi dosti ka lihaaj.
Ye Kya baat ki ghair ka ehsaan lijiye."
[Agreed that friends (dear ones) no longer held the relationship as sacrosanct.
That's no excuse to sought favours of strangers.]
At some point in time, some line, some couplet, some stanza of some song smacks you right in between the eyes.
I had never sought favours of strangers. Whenever one has de-sanctified the uniqueness of a relationship, I have installed loneliness in its place.
One day all the rooms of my building will be occupied by loneliness. That seems certain.
But after all I have done for the loneliness, living for it every moment, giving away my nights to it every night, maybe bleed for it. Maybe by then I will own the right to the loneliness. And call it my loneliness. And not share it with the world.
Yes, I wanted it to be in a relationship. But at least loneliness, my loneliness, just mine.
I want to be an antique,archaic, trifle, or trash, whatever but in a home. I never would be an exhibit in a line of curios in the most famous museum of all.
I'm just a homebody, looking to build a family. And families are not shared with the world.